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I had one of the weirdest dream, or I should say a series of dreams last night. It was 3-4 dreams back to back going from weirder to normal-ish. So, it started with me being at work (I should be paid for that time lol). It was me with a co-worker and I was at someone’s house to help them out with their daughter who could have been anywhere between 8-11 years old. It seemed like she was having some mental health issues. As we were trying to talk to mom and daughter to understand the situation, the daughter went into a psychotic fit, similar to a seizure but more like she was stuck in doing one thing for a few moments, like something was forcing her to do it and she had to do those things while in that state. At one point, she asked me if I could put my weight on her by putting my forearm on her heart and putting pressure on it. I didn’t understand the reason but it seemed like it was a life and death situation and I had to do it so I did. She was so relieved that I did and then it passed. Next thing I remember, there was some conversation and I went into a different room to speak to the daughter separately while my co-worker spoke with her mom. As I went and closed the door, I realized that I was supposed to stay in sight of my co-worker but it was too late for that.

There was a swing thing that I was holding that the little girl was in and I was swinging the thing back and forth. Now, she was no longer a 8-10 year old girl, she seemed like a baby, like 1-2 years old. As I was swinging her, she started to go in and out of sleep and I realized that she is tired from her fits. I was going to pick her up and I don’t know why but I asked her if I could pick her up. She said no and that she will walk herself and she was back to being a 8-10 year old girl. She went outside the room with me and kept walking. She didn’t say anything and she went upstairs and I was worried about not being able to complete a safety plan with her.

My co-worker, in the meantime, had called for back up and she happened to call people from my last job and one of my friends from India (mind you, she doesn’t know any of these people), and said that she was worried so she called some people for additional support. It seemed like a different house, I saw that there were some other people and food was being prepared for us. Then I saw the girl come down and she was asked me, “Are YOU okay?”, like she was asking because of her fit and was aware of it. I told her I was okay. Next thing I know, I am at a different house. There was someone who was bugging me even though I told them multiple times to leave me alone. The room I was in, it had a couple of big gifts that the person had sent over despite me declining their advances and I was like, where do I even put these. Someone came up next to me and said that I needed to put those big boxes in the storage and I agreed and moved them. I was still scared of someone finding them and I don’t understand why I didn’t throw them away.

Next thing I remember is being in a different house and I was with this guy who I used to work with and we both had passed out after a long day. I remember there was conversation about him not being able to go there and I was waiting while he was on the call. When he came back in the room after ending the call, he told me that he is not able to get home due to not having keys or some similar issue. I was just going to offer him to come over to my place and told him that he can stay the night there but he said that he will just be staying at the house he was at. Next place I remember being is my school in India. Me and four other people that I know, one of them being my friend/ex and we all are running to get to class on time since the bell is going to ring soon. We made it just in time. I remember that after that, I was going to get something from this classroom that used to be empty at a specific time but that time, a class was going on and I was so confused. Me and some other kids, and my friend/ex was standing outside the class. The teacher was peeking through the door and calling students’ names and she called my ex’s name and he said that *name* is in the corner and we both looked at each other and laughed. Next thing I remember, we both were walking in opposite direction and he acted like he didn’t give a shit and didn’t even acknowledge my presence and then I heard my alarm and woke up.

That was so weird, especially the baby part threw me off. Any of you got any ideas about what it could mean? Let me know in comments.

Love to all of you 💛